Monkey started preschool this past week and is about to celebrate his 3rd birthday at the end of the month. He makes me laugh and smile every day. Today, while running some errands, he was sitting in the backseat and said:
“Mama, I’m happy.”
I squealed at the cuteness and told him how happy I was to hear this and then asked if there was something in particular that was making him feel so happy. Irrationally expecting some deep explanation about how life just felt really good right now…perhaps because we just spent a long weekend full of adventure – stargazing, bowling, visiting with grandparents, neighbors, and friends. But his answer?
Wow. It was that simple. The thought of firetrucks was making him feel happiness right then and there and he just wanted to share that emotion with me. The whole thing launched me into this internal dialogue on how I used to express my daily joys and emotions here before I rarely had extra moments and time to myself to “think” at the end of the day. These “pages” used to be a place where I would steal a moment to myself and reflect.
As most mothers (especially of very young ones) know, having these moments are rare. This past few years have been busy and I’ve struggled to find a balance – of emotion, energy, dedicated time to my family, to my work, to myself. But, I hope to return here and reflect more often, as it always used to help me stay connected somehow.
Monkey LOVES being in school again. When we pick him up, he pours over how much he likes all of his new friends, his teacher, and the activities. After E was born and we came up with creative ways for me to take a year off from working (selling my car, taking odd jobs, etc.), we pulled Monkey from his toddler Montessori program. Though we had a blast spending more time together at home, I know he missed it. He still talks about the school, his old teacher and friends, and every time we would drive anywhere near South Waterfront or in visible shot of the ariel tram, he would ask if we were going to his school.
We began to talk about his new school in June to prepare our HSC for the big change.
Little brother (E) seems to be enjoying the undivided attention he receives for those few hours in the morning before he naps…
…but he sure loves to spending time with his big brother!
And though we love having him home more, we are hoping that Josh’s back heals soon, as he has needed to take off from work for a month and is not seeing any relief in sight. Even still, we’ve managed to have a few some fun, family adventures that don’t require much on his part. I’ve become used to doing all of the heavy lifting these days.
The pics above are from our short trip to Kah-Nee-Tah, which I absolutely enjoyed, as it was our very first family vacation together where it was just the four of us. It is so beautiful and so peaceful there, which seemed to rub off on the kids too.
With the summer months staying so warm, we’ve also spent many a day at water parks around town; our favorite being Elizabeth Caruthers Park because it is never as busy as the others.
Do you see why these guys remind me to stay in the moment and to cherish the journey together?
So here I am, reflecting. I hope to do it more. I hope to take the time more often to share outwardly how grateful I am for these moments . Because, I am. So very grateful.