Thank You!!!!!

I cannot begin to tell you how grateful Josh and I are for all of your words of support and offers to help. We immediately begin to feel stronger about the process knowing we had you all by our sides today.

E did great today. Handled anesthesia very well and the best news is that they found the culprit. It is not at all life threatening and he is going to be okay. Thank God! I’ve never been more scared in my life.

We are going to investigate potential food allergies as the reason for the issues to have begun in the first place.

Lots of love and thank you SO much for keeping little E in your hearts and thoughts.


e standing on tableOn Thursday of this week, our innocent, sweet, and loving 14-month-old boy (E) will undergo exploratory surgery.  After having a series of concerning symptoms and non-invasive tests, we are moving forward with the same recommendation by two highly regarded specialists in Portland.

Though I usually try not to let fear get the best of me, I am currently overwhelmed and nearly paralyzed with the emotion, so I am here to vent. The very thought of this beautiful little boy going under general anesthesia is daunting and of course ultimately, I fear any result reflecting a negative mark of any kind on his health.

I am sharing this private moment because I believe whole-heartedly in the power of thought, prayer, and intention, and I am asking anyone in our network of friends and family, or anyone who may be coming across this post to please keep this sweet boy in your hearts and thoughts for optimal health. He is one special, cuddly, little sweetie and he brings so many so much joy to everyone he is with every day.

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How We Play

Fall play seems to take a bit more effort on our part (planned activity inside vs. all day play outdoors), but I appreciate this time of year. Time to cozy up on all accounts.

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The rain clouds have finally arrived, giving us reasons for heading outside for some puddle stomping or mud clomping.

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We even took another excursion to the pumpkin patch with our friends Alicia, Andy, and their daughter, Mimi. I was having some camera troubles, so I should also point you in the direction of Alicia’s magnificent photos, which, do a better job capturing the essence of the morning more than mine below. Plus she always has such a way with words.

In line with his thoughtful ways, Monkey picked a few pumpkin vine flowers and gave one to Mimi (all on his own accord). It was one of the most adorable things I had ever seen. We all missed capturing the very moment with our cameras because we were so in awe by the moment. So very sweet.

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My apologies for the repetition of adventures to the pumpkin patches, but these were too cute not to share.

Its a good contrast from that sunny afternoon a few weeks ago.

“Mama, I’m Happy”

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Monkey started preschool this past week and is about to celebrate his 3rd birthday at the end of the month. He makes me laugh and smile every day. Today, while running some errands, he was sitting in the backseat and said:

“Mama, I’m happy.”

I squealed at the cuteness and told him how happy I was to hear this and then asked if there was something in particular that was making him feel so happy. Irrationally expecting some deep explanation about how life just felt really good right now…perhaps because we just spent a long weekend full of adventure – stargazing,  bowling, visiting with grandparents, neighbors, and friends.  But his answer?


Wow. It was that simple. The thought of firetrucks was making him feel happiness right then and there and he just wanted to share that emotion with me. The whole thing launched me into this internal dialogue on how I used to express my daily joys and emotions here before I rarely had extra moments and time to myself to “think” at the end of the day. These “pages” used to be a place where I would steal a moment to myself and reflect.

As most mothers (especially of very young ones) know, having these moments are rare. This past few years have been busy and I’ve struggled to find a balance – of emotion, energy, dedicated time to my family, to my work, to myself. But, I hope to return here and reflect more often, as it always used to help me stay connected somehow.

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Monkey LOVES being in school again. When we pick him up, he pours over how much he likes all of his new friends, his teacher, and the activities. After E was born and we came up with creative ways for me to take a year off from working (selling my car, taking odd jobs, etc.), we pulled Monkey from his toddler Montessori program. Though we had a blast spending more time together at home, I know he missed it. He still talks about the school, his old teacher and friends, and every time we would drive anywhere near South Waterfront or in visible shot of the ariel tram, he would ask if we were going to his school.

We began to talk about his new school in June to prepare our HSC for the big change.

Little brother (E) seems to be enjoying the undivided attention he receives for those few hours in the morning before he naps…

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…but he sure loves to spending time with his big brother!


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And though we love having him home more, we are hoping that Josh’s back heals soon, as he has needed to take off from work for a month and is not seeing any relief in sight. Even still, we’ve managed to have a few some fun, family adventures that don’t require much on his part. I’ve become used to doing all of the heavy lifting these days.

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The pics above are from our short trip to Kah-Nee-Tah, which I absolutely enjoyed, as it was our very first family vacation together where it was just the four of us. It is so beautiful and so peaceful there, which seemed to rub off on the kids too.

With the summer months staying so warm, we’ve also spent many a day at water parks around town; our favorite being Elizabeth Caruthers Park because it is never as busy as the others.

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Do you see why these guys remind me to stay in the moment and to cherish the journey together?

So here I am, reflecting. I hope to do it more. I hope to take the time more often to share outwardly how grateful I am for these moments . Because, I am. So very grateful.


Is it really something we are entitled to anymore? In an attempt to create a more productive, present, and seemingly safer environment for myself and my family, I went on a bit of a quest recently to remove myself from the world-wide web by changing my blog to “private,” and deactivating my Facebook account. At first, I wasn’t going to be that “extreme” about it and tried to pare down my Facebook profile to only one picture and beefed up privacy settings. However, I learned quickly that although I could delete all of the photos I wanted to on my end, there were numerous photos I’d been tagged in that would link up with my profile and I didn’t feel like notifying all of my friends to spend time removing tags from their photos. So, I deleted it all together.

Did it make a difference in creating that more productive, present, and safer feeling in my every day life? Not exactly. I essentially did have more moments of “present” time with my family where I was just overall more aware of my smart phone addiction (which is an epidemic anymore in society). Time spent on my phone perusing social media definitely went way down, but I developed new obsessions like checking local and international news stories and looking up articles on strange medical issues that could be plaguing me at any given moment. Not the healthy change I was wishing to obtain. I do have to say that I haven’t missed my time on Facebook, but I have noticed that when I am with friends, there tends to be this general assumption that I am somehow caught up with the goings on of their lives or the latest social media YouTube circulation.

The initial catalyst to this need to be more private came after our across-the-street neighbors installed a fortress camera system ALL OVER their home. We walk outside and are made very aware that indeed privacy is not something we are entitled to as we are filmed walking to and from our cars, and as I’ve recently discovered INSIDE our houses when opening the curtains. Someone out there, please tell me this is somehow illegal. Perhaps this has made me more of a paranoid person, because I am also suddenly very attuned to the location device in my cell phone and the fact that if someone really really wanted to, they could track where I am and what I am doing at any given moment of any given day. But, who in the world would actually want to do that? I am probably one of the most boring subjects out there.

With that in mind, I am putting myself back out there. SO, here I am. Because my current work depends on it. Because people in this day and age communicate this way. Because I am a sucker.





Funny. I woke up to this horoscope today. Seems very fitting:

‘Be careful, walls have ears!’ That’s what people used to say once upon a time. But now, thanks to the stalwart efforts of Edward Snowden and Julian Assange, we know that it isn’t just the walls. The CIA has many ears, though the jury remains out on whether these are attached to brains that are truly capable of understanding what they are hearing. But you really need not worry about protecting your privacy today. Just protect yourself instead, from your own tendency to worry too much about invisible enemies.

I’m Still Here


It really is hard to believe that I have completely abandoned the blog over the past six months. There were times in the past when I’d write at least 2-3 times a week. That was pre-kid life, but still! 

With the new year, I quickly became very busy with lots of exciting new projects for work, which became a challenge in those beginning months of pregnancy when nearly everything made me sick. But here I am – just into my last trimester now – feeling great, and looking ahead in anticipation of having another little soul joining our family who will amazingly be his own unique person, so different from anyone else. That’s the thing that gets me; being able to witness these tiny people develop and show their uniqueness over such a short period of time after birth. It will be another very special time.

So…what have we been up to? Six months time is too much to catch up on, so I will just share some of our more recent adventures.

In March, we took off for Spring Break in California – Santa Barbara, San Luis Obisbo and Pismo Beach area. We had some nice family vacation time and also got to stay and visit with my Aunt Julie and Uncle Lee. 








At the end of May, we took a spontaneous trip to Cannon Beach with friends, Johnna, Scott, and their daughter Wrenne.


It was an ideal way to spend Memorial Day weekend.  Since I have been such a workaholic this year, I made a point to unplug by leaving my laptop at home and putting down the phone.  


Seeing the kiddos play together felt so good. Though Monkey gets plenty of interaction time with other kids at school in the mornings each day, I don’t have the benefit of being witness to it all. 



Between adventures, this boy keeps growing up. So fast.



He continues to be spoiled by having wonderful extended family all around him – to take him to the zoo for quality time (Opa and Bestemor); to send him postcards from far away places to hopefully peak his interest in travel and exploration (Pop Pops and Grandma Sandy); to have dance parties with him (Uncle Ster); to spend time with him while his Papa is away on long fly-fishing trips (GiGi – while Cool Dude fishes too); to make silly faces on Skype with (Glammy and Jimbo); or to have BFF time (with Jelani).


I’ve been heading out of town some to the festival site to prepare and have been enjoying the beauty of the land and the new friends and colleagues I’ve met with this project.





Last weekend, I mixed a little work time with some additional family adventure by playing at the beach on a beautiful day in Hood River on the way back from another site visit.

With mine and Josh’s schedule, we often don’t have much time together as a full family since one of us is always working, while the other is with Monkey. For us, it has been the best way to make things work without having to enroll Monkey in school for full days.  





This Spring has brought us such gorgeous weather. We’ve so been enjoying the time outside again and in the garden. 



It looks like in the coming months, we will have some visitors here in Portland – with my childhood friend Tina and her husband Chris coming out in the start of July, then my soul sister, Alisha coming out to help me with the festival (my rockstar, go-to, event go-getter), and this just in —- a visit from Jules and C after the festival wraps.

Busy times, but lots to look forward to. 


A Collective Vision Board

Over these past few years, I have put together a few Vision Boards, including my personal visions for the new year, along with the aspirations of others I know who could use some extra prayers and good intentions for something they wanted to have come to pass in the new year as well. I placed cut outs for the depictions of these intentions in a location where I could see them daily and at the end of my morning meditations (something I’ve dropped in the last year after having Monkey and would really like to start up again), I would also go through a map in my mind of all of the people I know that I wanted to send my love to. As my friend Jules taught me, I would literally picture the Earth in my mind and slowly begin making my way around it, stopping off at the various destinations to give my love and good intentions to those people in my life who are both near and very far.

I’ve long been a fan of the power of intention and feel that great things can and have taken place through collective thought. Over the past year, I have witnessed so many wonderful things unfold (large and small triumphs that are equally important to the different people in my life – each which had begun with a focused thought). And with that, I am all about championing not only our own visions, but also those of the people we love!

I am sharing this story with you in hopes to inspire you to get together with friends and family and build Collective Vision Boards together! Here are some simple instructions:

1) Start by putting together your own Vision Board for the new year either by cutting out images in magazines or pasting some of your own photography to a poster board. You can even do this on Pinterest, which makes things fun and simple.

2) Next, select one picture that you think really wraps together the bulk of your overall vision for the new year.

3) Copy that image and share it with your friends and family who are participating in forming a Collective Vision Board – everyone’s Collective Vision Board will be a little different depending upon the network of people in each person’s individual lives who will be participating.

4) Each person participating will them have two boards – one Personal Vision Board, and one Collective Vision Board with people’s names or photos next to each corresponding image.

5) Finally, you will hang the boards you’ve created in a location where you can see it every day and send your intentions out to both your dreams and those of the people you love! If you’ve created your boards on Pinterest, print the boards to hang so you actually look at them daily. 

Happy dreaming dreamers!

A Crafty Halloween

Time has seemed ever so much more precious and valuable after having our son. Productive free time also seems to be rare anymore between our work schedules and time with Monkey. Not that our time spent with him isn’t productive…it is just productive in an entirely different way ;-) Often times, by the end of my work days or days at home with Monkey, all I want to do is sit in front of the television and veg out. And, for those of you who know me, this is definitely not part of my usual M.O. I have never before been big on television watching on a regular basis, and I hope to be able to change this again.

So, that is my excuse for such a long delay here on the blog. Lack of time.

I have, however, somehow managed to carve out a few little windows here and there to craft some Pinterest finds. One in particular is Monkey’s dinosaur tail for his Halloween costume.

We will be answering the door for Trick or Treaters as dinosaurs tomorrow, which should be fun for him to experience and for us to take in.


It is really adorable to see him walking around with his tail on. He seems to enjoy wearing the thing.

Have a fun and safe Halloween everyone! We will be looking forward to seeing some of your photos and costume ideas.

And, I will try to get on here more than once a month too!



Salishan Getaway & Evergreen Aviation Museum

I accidentally posted a teaser picture from my phone of our trip to Salishan last weekend during Glammy and PacMan’s visit to Oregon. Some people emailed me a bit confused. So, here is a full posting of our visit together this past week.

Although traveling with a little one isn’t always easy, we still love being able to get away when we can, and this time around we were able to head out to the coast for a stay at Salishan, which is such a lovely place.

On our first day there, we got out onto their complimentary putting course for a little family fun. Perhaps Monkey found his new favorite sport…

…or at least he enjoyed tending the flags as we putt the course. But then there was the Sand Volleyball court…

…and the Basketaball Court!

Something tells me this boy got his dad’s jeans when it comes to interests in all things sports related. Is it too early to tell at 11 months?

We had absolutely gorgeous coast weather during our stay with clear skies, warm days, sunsets, and starry nights. And one of the greatest gifts is that Josh and I got to have a few hours together each evening while Glammy got Monkey to bed and monitored him through the open door to their adjoining room. What a treat!

It meant an evening cocktail, sliders and truffle fries in the lounge before they closed each night (I am not a french fry person, but those truffle fries were darn good!)

I love when resorts plan their architecture and interior design to blend and compliment the natural and historical beauty of an area. The dark wood of the lodge and rooms allow you to fully take in the landscape. This nautical art was everywhere, along with beautiful wooden sculptures, which I enjoyed.

A room with a view. And a great one at that!

A few days after our stay at Gleneden Beach, Glammy and PacMan came through Portland for a few nights. It was humorous to me that there were two things PacMan wanted to check out while in Oregon. One being an Animal House tour while in Eugene on the University of Oregon campus, which my In-Laws happily took them on, and the other to check out Evergreen Aviation Museum while in Portland…with enough time to get home for the Packers vs. Bears game (hence, his nickname PacMan).
I hadn’t been to the Evergreen Aviation Museum in quite some time. At least, not since they built their water park (Wings and Waves), where you can “jump out of” a 747 located on the roof into their biggest slide, which you can see in the picture below. One of these days, when Monkey is a little older, we will head there. Especially now that he has completed his Angelfish Swim Classes this summer through Portland Parks & Recreation. The great thing for Oregon is that the waterpark is indoor so open year-round!

I like this slightly eerie view of the Wings and Waves 747 taken through the Evergreen Vineyard. Yes. The museum also has a vineyard and my mom and I made sure to enjoy a glass of wine out in the courtyard while PacMan checked out the second building of the museum since he was driving us home.

Have you seen the Spruce Goose, built during World War II by Howard Hughes? That is one BIG BIRD! I can see how it only made it into the air for a mere minute. But, it is definitely a sight to see! Monkey certainly enjoyed checking it out along with the many other planes:

Look at how tiny the tale of that other plane looks up against the nose of the Goose!

Self Guided Toddler Tour

Now that monkey is walking and running everywhere I have my hands full so we probably spent about 2/3 of our time visiting the museum flying a paper plane in the grassy area in front of the main building, which he liked very much!

I cannot believe it but I don’t have one single picture of him with Glammy since I spend much of my focus on the little Monkey!

It was a visit that was short and sweet and I didn’t get the dates right on my calendar so Josh and I didn’t have the days off that we had planned for, but we had a great time when we were all together and I am sure that my mom enjoyed the toddle age with Monkey.

they grow up so fast!

I can hardly believe we are at that stage where we can now look back in disbelief that our little monkey has reached so many milestones over the past 10.5 months since he was born. It feels like only a few short months ago that we brought him home from the hospital.

People said it to us all of the time – “They grow up so fast. Too fast.”

I’ve realized this past year that most of the cliche parent comments came about because they are true.

Since he was born, he has experienced many firsts and reached many milestones: rolling over, crawling, and now…(gasp)…walking and even saying real deal words!

I find myself scratching my head, wondering where the time went. As we play and spend time with him, Josh and I notice how capable Monkey is of doing so many things on his own already. All this time, he has been soaking up his surroundings to show us that he is beginning to understand how things work. I have mixed emotions of feeling so joyous to be discovering his blossoming personality, yet sad that those firsts are behind us now.

But, life is about discovery and this is literally just the beginning.

Playing with his new buddy Julien in the tunnel!

In just over a month, it will be Monkey’s 1st birthday. And as parents, we know a small part of what we will be celebrating is that we made it!

It’s our own milestone.